{"id":2580,"date":"2026-04-29T08:08:55","date_gmt":"2026-04-29T07:08:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/?p=2580"},"modified":"2026-04-29T14:40:37","modified_gmt":"2026-04-29T13:40:37","slug":"predestined","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/2026\/04\/29\/predestined\/","title":{"rendered":"Predestined."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size\"><em>For You.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\">\n<p>It&#8217;s never too late to be who you might have been.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>~ Alice, Predestination (2014)<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>April 8th, 2026<\/strong> | <strong>Rotterdam, The Netherlands<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>If you\u2019re reading this, you are in fact alive.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>That is mind-boggling.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I did not know for certain what happened to you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I just turned twenty-five, and I changed my whole life radically in just a few weeks\u2019 time. All for myself. No, all for you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Up until\u2026 Well, now.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I didn&#8217;t know,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>That means I am,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>That means you are,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>That means all of us are in fact<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Alive.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Which means I<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li><em>Just fell horribly in love;<\/em><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><em>Am in fact mentally stable (-ish);<\/em><\/li>\n\n\n\n<li><em>Can survive.<\/em><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I didn\u2019t deserve any of this.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>But neither did you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>You are my muse.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I don\u2019t think I\u2019ll ever have the chance to write a letter to you again. So here it is.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I don\u2019t want to waste any more of your time. I think someone is waiting for me.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>You are.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>This is for all the Trans, Queer, Middle-class, mentally unwell and struggling youth. The ones who also don\u2019t think they can make it until the end, wherever that may be. The ones who also think they can\u2019t go on another day. Those who also don\u2019t feel comfortable in their own skin. Those who struggle every single day. In a sense, you inspired me to sit here on this very park bench in a city I can\u2019t understand. I just took one hit of one joint and I\u2019m about to marry the love of my life. I think. Either that, or\u2026 well.&nbsp;<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Let\u2019s not finish that thought.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>My friends, family and you seemingly have fixed my entire life. Ridiculous.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I wasn\u2019t even sure you were alive until I read this. Somehow, meeting you has completely altered my life. That\u2019s a strange feeling.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Despite this, I\u2019m writing. Writing while every single problem I currently have has been resolved.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I feel danger.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>My heartrate is currently 135 and I have slept for maybe three hours. You should NOT be thinking about this right now. Yet, you\u2019re reading this.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>WHY?!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>To protect the others.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>You just received a gorgeous notebook from mum all the while also bumming a lighter because you\u2019re in outrageous debt. Not because of <\/em><strong><em>you<\/em><\/strong><em>, but because of her. <\/em><strong><em>HER.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Save yourself so I can save others. Listen to that cringey song. Watch that silly movie. But under NO circumstance, give up. Don\u2019t publish this. Not yet. Give it a bit. Use a pencil, not a pen. Give up substances for a bit. Yap.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Keep writing, stay silly and count every day like it\u2019s the last. You might never make it if you don\u2019t. Shout names, sleep as well as you can and don\u2019t overspend, unless you really need to. Accept the care you were asking for but didn\u2019t get.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Stay a bit.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>For me,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>For you,<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>For <\/em><strong><em>her.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>For all of<\/em><strong><em> us.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>And under no circumstance, let your thoughts get the better of you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I\u2019d be horribly disappointed.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I miss you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Dreadfully.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em><strong>~ Maya,<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em><strong>forever.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size\">It&#8217;s been a strange few weeks for me, but this is one of countless &#8220;articles&#8221; I&#8217;ve written in that period. A few I did on the day of my 25th birthday, but this is gonna be the only public one for a while at least. I hope it inspires <em>something<\/em> in you. If not, that&#8217;s alright. Love y&#8217;all anyways &lt;3. Leave a comment with your thoughts, or let your thoughts just be your thoughts.<br>~ Maya &lt;3<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s never too late to be who you might have been.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":27,"featured_media":2581,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[117,144,145,122,71],"tags":[132],"class_list":["post-2580","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-artikel-2","category-lgbtq","category-maya","category-personal","category-poetry","tag-maya"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2580","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/27"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2580"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2580\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2589,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2580\/revisions\/2589"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2581"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2580"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2580"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/forum.koornbeurs.nl\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2580"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}