I remember when I was small and you were all I wanted to be, to become.
You loved your work, your life, and everyone around you, you saw the good in everything and everyone.
When I grew older and you grew more distant I wasn’t sure anymore, I knew you were good and you didn’t have a bad bone in you but the good got overshadowed.
It got overshadowed by your issues, which became ours, mine. When I should’ve been a child.
You didn’t seem as optimistic and happy as you were, as you were drifting away from us.
I don’t have many fond memories, I keep trying to find them deep in my brain but my mind only goes to all the bad and dirty, I don’t know why.
I remember you being good and kind but when I try to see it in my head it’s just static.
All I see is blood, I see drinks where I shouldn’t, I hear myself crying when my brother tried to take care of you.
Now when I see your face in my head I see you smiling, I see you happy, but I don’t understand why I couldn’t have that mom whilst I was growing up.
When I look back at my youth I try my hardest to see that inspiration I used to feel, the inspiration I’m missing.
Are you dealing with feelings of depression? You are not alone! The Koornbeurs is there for you! You can always approach confidential advisors or a board member. You could also call 113. This government site also contains a lot of useful information.
Kamp jij met depressieve gevoelens? Je bent niet alleen! De Koornbeurs is er voor je! Je kunt altijd naar een vertrouwenspersoon stappen, of naar een bestuurslid. Ook kun je bellen met 113. Deze site van de rijksoverheid bevat ook veel goeie informatie.